I Tried!

This morning I tried to get up and do some meditating before Dad got up. He'd stayed up late last night and I thought I'd have time this morning at 6:30.

I got up and dressed, let the dogs out and sat in darkness in the livingroom. In less than five minutes he was up in the kitchen, turning on the light and making coffee! (he's usually in bed at least until 7!). He said, "I won't disturb you!", never understanding that just his being there and especially turning on the light had already "disturbed" me.

Went to our bedroom asking him to stay in the kitchen for a while, and tried again. Not long after, I heard his footsteps going into the bathroom--never mind there's a bathroom off the kitchen. Foiled again!

Decided to try some Rodney Yee by to remembering his tape without turning it on. Got out the yoga mat and laid down. Some peaceful moments as I tried to remember the relaxation movements. But, when I stood up, there was Jake doing his sitting movements! Standing up and begging while he wagged his tale and panted a happy pant! Then he laid down on his back! Was he trying to mimic me!

Finally attempted to do a bit of stretching before putting things away and getting coffee for me and dad (who, by that time, had gone back to bed!). He apologized having no real idea of how he disturbed me! But, he was right--I should have told him! But I didn't want to spoil the quiet by using my voice!

Although somewhat thwarted in my attempts, I did have brief moments where I was able to "get back to center" and immediately some things clarified in my mind. I need to be more organized; I need more structure. These things bring me peace.

Today is a busy day as Monday's usually are. I will walk in a few minutes with my friend Linda and the dogs--hardly walking--more like visiting and josteling the dogs!--but still I will be able to discuss things and get some minor outdoor exercise.

When we come home, I'll have breakfast and maybe attempt a few moments with the outdoor critters coming back in to kitchen and food prep. It became clear in those few moments what foods I need to fix today and the beginnings of what I need to do for the rest of the week although I need more time to clarify that.

Also need to do more organizing even if that's at the expense of other projects for the moment.

The girls' costumes have caused some grief--am out of my element to some extent--more complicated than I thought. The doggie costume as well--she's tinier than the pattern suggests and fitting that stupid bun on her has been a challenge. Some times these challenges (minor as they are!) seem insurmountable and I lose perspective. (They are, after all, for children and a dog! and they ARE costumes! Not for wearing every day!) but I believe that they can be accomplished--just not as quickly as I'd like perhaps.

Meeting at 12:15--I'll leave around 11:45 and perhaps do some light shopping on the way home depending on what menu choices I can make this AM.

I'll try again tomorrow!

Peace!

Carol