Bowled ok yesterday: 116, 115 and 139. Team took 2 out of 4--thought we were going to lose all 4 for a while. Good to be with group and share my situation with them. Afterwards ate at Fish Daddy's--always good.

Things are going ok at home. Good to talk to Megumi and to hear about the girls. Love them all so much!

Did manage to make some decisions about fabric and patterns for what I want to make the girls for Christmas and started cutting out pattern pcs.--prep is often half the job so maybe I can get that done while Millie and company are here. Millie immediately criticized some of my fabric choices for some of my projects. And I'm sure she doesn't even realize it.

Without trying to be unkind, her mother looks half-dead. Never looks up and has to be fed and taken to the bathroom. In a wheelchair and sleeps nearly 75-80% of the time or at least looks like it. Don't think Millie sees how bad it really is although she knows it's bad. It's like you're looking like a shell -- somewhere deep inside might be a remnant of a person but it's hard to believe that the person as a whole is enjoying herself. Sure hope that I never get to be that way and that if I do someone has the good sense to put me out of my misery.

Millie professed her love for me today and will hardly let me pass by her without giving me a bear hug. This is so hard for me when I don't feel the same and don't want to hurt her. No matter how I try to give her the message as gently as I can, she won't listen. Even when I try to be critical and point out things that she's doing, it goes over her head. Another week of this.

But I will walk this AM and we'll try to do something together today although how to do it with this situation is beyond me at this point.

So glad Jordan will be home today--I know his familly has missed him and can't wait to see him again!

Peace!

Carol