Kinda down today. Noon meeting with my sponsor again admonishing those dually addicted to seek refuge in N/A meetings in an effort to try to keep AA pure. Those stronger than me were able to stand up to her. I just get discouraged as I feel an addiction is an addiction and I would offer AA as a comfort to those who suffer from those addictions.
At least I was able to bring it up in the after-care group and do a little venting with which most agreed. Felt a little better but still came home to binge a bit and know I'd be drinking if that was available to me.
In a situation where the faster I go the behinder I get! Feel so much pressure and instead of meeting it head on I feel my head is going deeper and deeper into the sand the result of which is that I'm getting less done and more behind. Somehow I need to snap out of this and get on with my projects.
Eubee will be a been-him by the end of the day and Sugar's teeth should be in better shape. Finally called the young vet that was recommended several months ago and he said he'd come out today at 2:30. That will also take up some time.
In a place now where I just want the world to go away. I want a suspension of time and a moritorium on the demands made on me-often demands made by myself. Not dealing with this very well at all. Going to ask Dad to take Chloe in today for her class.
Neighbors got a new dog but unfortunately got a male which is not good for Jake. As good a dog as Jake is this last chicken killing leaves him wanting in my eyes and he's very aggressive towards this new dog which does not bode well. I wish they'd gotten a female--that would have helped. Jake is spending more time in his shock collar.
I need a successful, fully accomplished day. Hope I feel better by the end of this one.
Peace,
Carol
Saved by the Grace of God
1 year ago
1 comment:
{Getting on my soap box}
Don't let others bring you down!
You are the only one in control of your mental state! {stepping down}
I used to have to say that into the mirror when I was on recruiting duty. It helped.
Eating can be an addiction too, just about anything involving our sense organs can have an addiction associated to it, even mental states. Eating has got to be one of the toughest ones to cope with, because you have to eat.
Maybe the best way to cope is to just be mindful of your actions, know that when you are reaching for some comfort food that it really is not going to comfort you but just make you feel worse in the long run.
Don’t worry so much about going fast. Think about this... "Slow is smooth, smooth is fast, slow is fast"
Maybe it would help to identify what it is that is causing pressure and why it feels that way too.
Sometimes the best thing you can do when you are feeling overwhelmed is absolutely nothing. Do nothing, think nothing, give you’re self a nice empty space to work with, then gradually pull bits and pieces in to deal with in due time.
Wow I am full advice today, I think I am going to try and follow some of it myself!
Have a successful, fully accomplished day.
Love
Jordan
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